Posted by rabidreader on September 21, 2005, at 16:13:27
In reply to Re: My T. is Too Important To Me » 10derHeart, posted by All Done on September 21, 2005, at 2:16:14
Dearest 10der, I am struggling with this too so don't think you are alone, or that this post doesn't matter! I was glad to find this post so I knw that I'm not alone!
I have had two terminations in the last few months...I had two therapists and they both had to leave. (One I was in love with, but that's another story.) I have felt so abandoned and sad, and then angry. I've been trying to think positively about attaching to therapists, but it's hard and very scary. I feel like I want to throw walls up right now. But at the same time, my therapy is the highlight of my week also. If I don't get to talk about everything I want to, or if it seems to go by too quickly, or if something just isn't quite right with the session...it all makes me feel worse about those six days in between.
I have no solution, but just want to let you know that I have an understanding about this subject. I know it hurts to not have your therapist there every day. It feels lonely, it feels painful, it feels like the only thing real that happens is in that office.
What I'm glad to hear is that you're making progrss with friendships. I am, too. It's just slow as molassis, in my opinion, whereas with the therapist it's easier to let down your guard. But I'm going to keep trying, and I hope you do, too. The therapy is supposed to help us with the Life Outside, those Six Days. Maybe if we can improve those six days, and still have the therapy until we're ready to leave, our lives will feel more worthwhile.
Many hugs--here's six, one for each of those therapy-less days!!
((((((10der))))))
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