Posted by happyflower on September 21, 2005, at 0:26:07
In reply to My T. is Too Important To Me, posted by 10derHeart on September 20, 2005, at 16:14:07
Hey Tender! I think sometimes, at least for me, when I feel like I am getting too close, I want to back away from someone, even if it is a good thing. It is like I fear I will get rejected by someone who starts to mean a lot to me. It is easy for me to reject that person before they reject me.
I am trying to overcome this, it is hard to trust people sometimes.
My T has shown me I can trust him, and he won't dump me if I become too clingy. It took me a long time to realize this and believe in him. Now that I trust him, I feel I can slowly become less attached to him. Which I am trying to do lately and so far I feel fine with it. I even cancelled my next session next week, for one it is getting very expensive, and I want to prove it to myself that I don't "need" him as much as I once did as a therapist. He doesn't know why I cancelled. I told him that I will call to reschedule, but I plan to hold out as long as I can.
Well anyways, I know I am rambling on, but at one time he meant way too much to me, but now those feelings are slowly lessening, but on my own time frame. He will always be special to me, but I feel maybe in a more realistic way. I don't know if this makes sense to anyone, but it is how I feel at least right now. (((((B2)))))
poster:happyflower
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