Posted by pinkeye on May 8, 2005, at 13:33:39
You guys know what is good about this board? I don't have to pretend anything.. I can be just what I am.
I don't have to pretend that I am happier or cheerful or more capable or less capable, or that I am feeling better than what I really am feeling..
I don't have to get over things too soon, I can vent all I want. And nobody says anything about insisting that I progress faster than I really want to.
It is a great thing - to be able not to pretend even a little bit. I wonder I even didn't have that luxury with my therapists. I always wanted to appear stronger than I really was, pretended I was in control sooner than I really was, because I didn't want to burden the Ts also. I wasn't lying to them, but I think it was my inherent coping mechanism that I always had with my dad - to pretend things were fine when they weren't and I was afraid of being weak, and emotional and sentimental and vulnerable. Here I am completely free. That is really great.
poster:pinkeye
thread:495224
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