Posted by pinkeye on May 10, 2005, at 19:13:37
In reply to Re: I could be so much happier. **trigger** » pinkeye, posted by Shortelise on May 10, 2005, at 17:24:19
Thanks ShortE. I wonder if I would ever forgive myself fully.
I have a very hard time forgiving myself for anything.
And actually my childhood was not all that bad. There were some sort of psychological problems, but otherwise I think maybe I was ok. Or maybe not. I don't know. The point is, my parents had everything they needed. Especially my dad. A tiny bit of wisdom would have made my life completely fine. He had too much of inofmration, and I think he was not able to create full wisdom out of it..and he was just trying to live by little bit here, little bit there, never understanding anything about emotions, and didn't understand what it means to be emotionally a happy person, or rear a child. He had lot of inheritance, a beautiful wife, a good child, well respected in society, and good health himself. What more could a person get in life? And he spoiled everything. He lost his inheritance, he made my mom so very sad, and he made himself so fat, and he spoiled my happiness. It is almost like a person is given a paradise, and he turns it into hell.
I think my dad has several serious issues.
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