Posted by pinkeye on May 9, 2005, at 16:38:51
In reply to Re: I wish I could tell my ex T all this but scared » pinkeye, posted by Tamar on May 9, 2005, at 16:27:52
Thanks Tamar. You are right, I won't be getting a reply. I think he will never write anymore to me again, and I just have to let go and accept it.
Besides, he probably would have forgotten me by now as well. And it will probably appear like I am trying to manipulate him into writing to me again - by inventing some new sob story.
And besides I think they are not taught too much about all these transference and everything in India. He won't be able to grasp what I am going through, and maybe he will think I am just trying to flirt and cling on to him. He never was into too much regressing into childhood and stuff. Actually, anybody else in India would have straight away gone to that conclusion (that I am just trying to be flirty) if I had told them about all these attraction and stuff. Atleast he had much more exposure and common sense than other psychiatrists in India. A cousin of mine went to somebody else (a couple of other psychiatrists) and told me that both of them had absolutely no clue what they were talking about. She said they were totally worthless and really had no idea whatsoever about anything in life. I am glad mine had lot more knowledge and understanding than that.
I guess I will stick with babble and my new T. The problem is I am so connected to him, so it would really help me. But maybe that is not the point.. maybe I should try to heal by myself.
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