Posted by Scentedgarden on January 12, 2007, at 19:37:05
In reply to Re: Jealousy, Seperateness, NewYrs, Now -long***Tr » annierose, posted by ElaineM on January 11, 2007, at 22:33:19
> >>>>>>He is not a therapist, as long as you know that. You are not doing therapy together.
>
> I know he's not a therapist to me anymore. And he kinda knows that to. But he thinks he is *more* than a therapist now, not less than -- and that it's good.**i THINK I CAN SEE WHAT YOU SEE... HE SEES
> >>>>Right now, he is playing with your mind.
>
> I appreciate your anger - I do - I know it comes from a good place. But I fear that I see a side of him no one else can.**HIS REMINDS ME OF MAN I LET ABUSE ME I WAS THE ONLY PERSON IN THE WHOLE WORLD WHO SAW THE GOOD IN HIM..
That if you could hear his voice, and see his eyes when he speaks...
** MY BOYFREINDS..THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AT THAT TIME..HAD DAZZLING EYES TO ME...
DO YOU KNOW THAT THE NDEVIL ALWAYS COMES AS A MASQUERADING ANGEL OF LIGHT..?
if you saw him tear up, you may too doubt whether he's so predatorial.
*** MY BF DID ALL THAT TOO ME, EVEN DOWN ON HIS KNEES BEGGING ME..CRYING...BUT ALL THE WHILE SCREWING OTHERS AND ABUSING ME SO MUCH EMOTIONALLY NA D MENTALLY..AND BOY COULD HE LIE!!!
Sometimes I do question his motives (when he suggests bad things, or makes me upset when I won't let him know everything about me) but then he does a 180.
THIS IS A NORMAL BEHAVIOUR FOR VERY NARSICCISTIC PERSONALITY TYPES... And amidst all his bad behaviour, he also seems to genuinely care -- which sounds impossible, but that's what it's like.
ELAINE..I KNOW I REALLY DO KNOW..I AM UNDERSTANDING YOU NOW...I CAN SEE SO MUCH OF THE STRUGGLR YOU ARE HAVING ...I HAVE BEEN IN A SIMIALAR POSITION...WITH A MAN..
I WAS 18 YRS OLD ..AND HE WAS 43 WHEN WE MET...AND WE WERE TOGETHER FOR A LONG TIME...HE IS IN HIS EARLY 60'S NOW...!
I LEFT HIM ONE DAY AND WAVED GOODBYE TO HIM UP AT HIS WINDOW...AND I'VE NEVER SEEN HIM AGAIN..!
IT WAS THE HARDEST THING I EVER HAD TO DO...I WENT HOME AND I WAS CRAWLING ON THE FLOOR IN MY ROOM..JUST GRIPPING ONTO THE CARPET..AS EVERYHTING INME WANTED TO GO BACK TO HIM...
I PRAYED AND PRAYED AND I MANAGED TO NOT SEE HIM..THEN I MOVED 400 MILES AWAY...WE SPOKE BY FONE..AND NOW NO CONTACT FOR A FEW YEARS...!!
IT WAS NOT EASY ELAINE ....AND I HONESTLY BELIEVE YOU WHEN YOU SAY HE SEEMS TO CARE...HIS EYES ARE LIKE SHINING...ETC ...
EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY ELAINE...
I FEEL THAT YOU ARE GOING TO COME THROUGHT THIS...
PLEASE STAY IN TOUCH WITH BABBLE FOLKS..AS WE REALLY CARE ABOUT YOU...!!!
THATS THE TRUTH...
BLOVESG
P.S. SORRY I HAVENT ANSWRED YOUR OTHER POST TO ME...BUT I WILL HOPE TO SOON...AS I HAVE MAYBE SOMETHING TO SAY THERE TOO..BUT THE POINT IS I WANTED YOU TO KNOW ..I THINK I UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL..!!!WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH AND WHY ITS SO HARD FOR ONLY YOU TO SEE THAT BAD IN THIS GUY..
EVERYONE AROUND ME TOLD ME MY BF WAS BAD FOR ME...EVERYONE!!! EVEN MY FAMILY COULDNT STAND HIM..HE WAS SO OBVIOUSLY BAD FOR ME IN THEIR EYES....MY FREINDS ETC...ALSO JUST COULDNT UNDERSTAND WHAT I SAW IN HIM...
BUT I THOUGHT I HAD TO KEEP LOVING HIM..AS I WAS SORT OF HIS SVIOUR IN A WAY BECAUSE ONLY I COULD SEE THE VERY GGOOD MAN INSIDE OF HIM...
THE LITTLE BOY WHO WAS LOST AND ALONE AND VULNERABLE...AND WHO TRUSTED ME ENOUGH TO SHOW ME ALL HIS REAL FEELINGS...
SO PLEASE IF IT'S ANY COMFORT...I AM ABLE TO SAY...YES ELAINE , I KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO CARE FOR A MAN LIKE YOUR THERAPIST...
PLEASE TRY TO RELAX
EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALLRIGHT WITH YOU..
IT TAKES TIME..
AND THERE IS AN APPOINTED TIME FOR EVERYTHING UNDER THE SUN...
IM SO GLAD YOU HAVE POSTED ALL THIS....THANK YOU!MUCH BLOVE
SCENTEDGARDEN..xx
>
> Thanks for caring. I always think I make you all hate me -- when I can't do what you all say. That that weakness in me repels you guys. It's good to hear from you.*** I CAN SEE WHY YOU THINK YOU MAKE US ALL HATE YOU..I UNDERSTAND YOUR THINKING THAT WAY ...REALLY I DO...BUT WE COULDNT HATE YOU ELAINE..NO WAY!!!
YOUR WEAKNESS ??? YOU'RE NOT WEAK ELAINE!!!!!!
ON THE CONTRARY...YOU ARE VERY VERY STRONG...!!
I BET THAT SURPRISED YOU ME SAYING THAT...LOLbut it's the truth you're not weak...your strong as an ox...and i know you're going to be allright...
> blove, ELbig PEACE...PEACE ..PEACE
p.p.s. plz feel freee to ask me anything you want to know and i agree i will answer as honestly and helpfully as i possibly can..ok..?!
SG
xp.p.p.s. I hope I can give you all a positive update one day.
****dont you be worrying about that...this is not the time to be thinking what you can do for us Elaine...but its very nice of you thinking like that...and just goes to show again how wonderful and kind and intelligent you are...please chill..! bye bye and GOD BLESS YOU !!!!!!! xx
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