Posted by ElaineM on January 13, 2007, at 12:12:39
In reply to To ALL-just a thot, how best, posted by muffled on January 11, 2007, at 22:14:29
((((((((((((Muffly)))))))))))))
You have such a strong instinct to take care of others. It's so touching. I don't understand why something would be like that towards me, but I appreciate it so much.When it comes to people bashing my T, I'm kinda used to it, in a way. I can't really expect less of others, when now, even *I* can admit that he's rather unethical. But it does create this powerful urge within me to defend him. The only thing is that it also makes me feel sad cause I know that I can't leave him - can't do what everyone is saying (and have been saying for many months). It's tough though cause I feel bad that I can't leave, and think I'd feel bad (probably even worse) if I did. I've set myself up not to win either way. And when I hate myself even more, I start to think that you all feel the same way.
Mostly I'm just scared of everyone, all the time, everywhere. I do know that people mean well here. It would be upsetting if people *didn't* respond at all. I can understand where all the comments come from - that they're motivated from concern.
Even though it's taken me awhile to respond, I read this when you first posted it and it means alot that you want me to feel safe here.
thanks again ((((muff)))
blove, EL
poster:ElaineM
thread:721410
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20070103/msgs/721957.html