Posted by mair on January 28, 2002, at 17:14:28
In reply to Re: Mair, posted by Dinah on January 27, 2002, at 22:16:24
Dinah - your advice is always worth alot. "Open and vulnerable" seems like a tall order to fill for someone as guarded as I am. I think that's why I have such a difficult time communicating when I'm really depressed - because I can't simply make myself be open and vulnerable.
I sometimes joke that I came to this therapist under false pretenses. I was referred to her by my ex-pdoc for some very directed short-term CBT. I think she figured out very early on that I needed something more than that. She incorporates CBT techniques periodically, but that only works when I'm otherwise motivated, focused and in pretty good shape, so we digress alot.
I probably do present pretty well and probably occasionally I do fool her, but maybe it's evidence of my trust that I don't try to as much anymore, and sometimes I know she's figured out what kind of shape I'm in somewhere between the waiting room and her office.
Thanks for all the support. My appointment is tomorrow - I'm still pretty anxious about it, but at least I feel more committed to the idea that I should go, and that some positive can maybe come of it. Now my pdoc appointment later this week is another story...(< :