Posted by Greg A. on January 24, 2002, at 18:05:03
In reply to ahhhhhhhhhhh, posted by sar on January 23, 2002, at 16:26:19
I’m glad to hear from you. I missed your posts. Even though you shrug off the episode of taking all your pills and your stay in the hospital, I can imagine that you were feeling pretty bad to go that far. I am very glad that you called 9-1-1. You always sound so ‘up’ in your posts even when describing things like an attempted overdose. The descriptions of waking up and crying are almost like third person observations. You have a great sense of humour (most often at your own expense) and some real insight into life.
I have found the last couple of months when I have not been doing nearly as well as I was, that I have retreated into the basics. For me that means going to work but not stressing myself out too much – just doing ‘mechanical’ things. Doing my part at home so as to not feel too guilty, but allowing myself to beg off lots of things as well. Sleeping – enough but not too much. Eating reasonably. Getting some exercise every day despite feeling sooooo achy and sore. Drinking – but not too much. That has been life the last while. I don’t plan ahead. I just do the basics each day. I am trying to ‘tweak’ my meds to see if I can’t get a better result.
You make so many changes in your life sar. Positive or negative – they are all stresses. Give yourself a chance to be sick for awhile so you can recover. If you just jump from one situation to another, the demons follow. You may think you’ve lost them, but they have this nasty habit of showing up again.
Sorry to go on like this. I know so little of your situation – I can only speak from my own experience. But I do care.