Posted by Susan47 on December 25, 2005, at 13:27:37
Things have become really bad. The anatomy of my relationship with the ex-therapist is written all over these boards for the last couple of years, I think. But the fact is I left some stuff out. Like, stuff that's embarrassing, and weak to admit to. But the fact is that I never let him alone, on the phone, all this time, I was calling his ans. machine and wanting to talk to him but not able to.
I haven't been honest. I didn't know what the problem WAS, for so long. Then he threatened to go to the police, and things became crystal-clear; out of necessity? I don't know. He said a third party would be listening to all my calls and if necessary they would contact the police. Which is okay, because if he felt that way he should have said it a year ago but he probably knew even then that he could crush me with that, so he didn't. He held off.
But he needs to apologize to me.
And I don't know how to make that happen, and he can't apologize to me if he isn't sincere, and he wouldn't even be sincere if he didn't honestly believe he did this thing, and unfortunately, I don't have a camera in back of my eyes so I couldn't take pictures or a film of him doing this, so it's so easy for him to turn a blind eye and say, no I didn't do this thing, it's your imagination and your problem that makes you think I did this .. on top of which, you can't prove anything.
Nothing.
I can prove nothing.
poster:Susan47
thread:592087
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20051216/msgs/592087.html