Posted by DaisyM on February 17, 2004, at 9:59:21
In reply to Re: Looks like an 'A-' to me... » DaisyM, posted by fallsfall on February 17, 2004, at 7:15:19
Thanks guys. I feel an enormous, "yeah, but..." coming out from somewhere.
I think part of what I am upset about (2am clarity?) is that I didn't make it clear that while the little girl might want these things, *I* in no way expect my Therapist to provide them. I KNOW they aren't reasonable. I don't want to have this enormous need exposed.
I picture him now thinking, "this woman is going to turn into an obsessed fool and I will never get any peace. We can't do therapy 24/7." *I* don't want that, my life was pretty busy and complicated without therapy.
And I keep coming back to the idea that I still don't understand the rules for therapy. I have allowed my Therapist to provide support and strength and I have confessed the times that he became a life line. But his take on my description was that I still won't let him help me. Maybe I just don't know how to do that. Maybe I should use the cliff analogy and try to figure out how to make that leap.
*sigh* Too much to think about. And the little girl in me is throwing a tantrum because I want to put her back away. I'm going to have to break out the heavy artillery today: cover her up with a suit, heels and pearls!
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