Posted by DaisyM on February 18, 2004, at 12:48:41
In reply to Re: You're all easy graders » DaisyM, posted by fallsfall on February 18, 2004, at 8:04:36
>>You know that for everyone else - well, it applies to you, too.
<<<Isn't is funny how our intellect refuses to inform our emotions sometimes? yes, I know that every child deserves great parents, safety, warmth and love. But I know this as an adult, as a parent to my own children. When I touch that place that those childhood feelings got split off, there is an intellectual disconnect. I feel what I felt back then and it gets all confused. Magical thinking, cause and effect and the childhood belief that my parents know what is best for me take over when I examine those early years. Especially if I don't look at it from my current adult perspective but I allow myself to feel it as I did then.
I think it is terrific that you trust your Therapist so much to handle your emotions. Even more impressive is that you have developed the ability to contain your emotions, to keep them from destroying you. I haven't learned how to put it away between sessions and then take it back out again. I put it away for weeks at a time and then slowly my Therapist will gently try to pull it back out. I'm afraid that is what may have happened here. I feel very much in control today, like I've recovered from an illness or crisis and am "back to work." It will be interesting to see if we can get around this rebuilt wall today, or if I will allow it to stay standing.
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