Posted by Roo on June 18, 2001, at 8:16:50
In reply to Re: Am I just too depressed to committ to anyone?, posted by Greg A. on June 15, 2001, at 16:42:20
Oh my gosh, Greg A., I can totally relate to your
post. Dosen't the questioning wear you out? I too,
wonder if this is "normal", something all people in
relationships go through. He is a great and rare
person. I know if I gave this relationship up, he
has qualities that I would never find again in another
person...I'm amazed he will hear my doubts and still
stay with me. Soemtimes I fault him for that--I would
never stay with someone that questioned their feelings
for me so often. I couldn't deal with it. I wonder why
(and if it's healthy), that he stays with someone who
questions their feelings for him so much. It's painful
to even contemplate. I do wonder, often, if this
is just about me, and not about him at all. It's what
keeps me from leaving. Sometimes I think the true
test would be if I were happy with myself, and loved
myself, would I still want to be with him? Is this all
about me being unhappy with myself and projecting it
all on him? I constantly feel like my mind is a wet dish
rag that's being wrung and wrung and wrung....
it's so much easier being single...but the thought
that scares me the most is...can I just not love anyone?
Do I just have to pick the easy path of not loving anyone
because I don't get challenged in any way? I really hate
to think that. I"m rambling...
poster:Roo
thread:6456
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