Posted by Dewd on December 22, 2009, at 22:24:12
In reply to Re: Longing for Ts kindness, posted by Helana on December 21, 2009, at 12:20:45
Hey Helana im so happy to hear your reply! a funny story, i spend half an hour responding but then i back track on my computer and all the info is lost! lol im sorry that i couldnt respond earlier, remember the holiday card i was talking about earlier? yeah i spent the WHOLE day working on it lol im half awake because of that but i really want to reply ( i hope i can write in complete sentences but here goes )
>>>"Hi Dewd. I know exactly what you mean about it being so nice to know people understand and care about what youre going through. I have felt so uplifted this past week since Ive started to post know that there are others who know exactly how I feel in certain rescpects. I have talked about this with my mom, sister, best friends, and they all listen and understand but dont have that level of understanding as one who has gone or is going through it."<<<
Its the most wonderful thing for me to know that im cared about and understood... when i was little , i would never have any friends, and people would often judgem me for what i would say or for how i would dress or look... i grew up feeling inferior and unlovable... i thought hey maybe im just inferior and dont deserve to feel loved and cared for... i just dont have what other kids my age have... at home my family was a mess because my dad was drinking most of the time having seizures and at one point he would sleep out on the street. i remember once for my parents anniversary i spent like an hour making this little love game for my parents , like where they would have to answer each others questions and stuff, but they didnt pay any attention to it, they were like cool, its cute son... my mom would have to endure all of this and i would keep all the pain to myself its the most wonderful things in the world for me that i know my t. she honestly means the world to me... she knows me, she understands me, and doesnt judge me like other people would. she means what she says and is always so loving and sweet. she cares for me like a big sister would care for her little brother... i truly love her with all my heart i just realized i went completely off of what i wanted to respond to :) you know Helana, when i talk to other people about therapy and how tough it is at times, i totally know how you feel about not being understood because its allmost like you wish that they were psychic so that they could see into your heart and care for you, but you know what i realized just now, that our t's konw that inner person insied of us, they do understand , and care about us and like us for who we really are.... i totally know though how it feels to not be able to relate to our loved ones though, i mean for them to relate to us...( yet its nice to know that even though they dont understand they care about us so much to listen and try to understand... sometimes just having someone say that they care is amazing...)
i have butterflies evertime i hear her name.... hehehehe our t's are so awesome... how did your session i would love to know! :D
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