Posted by Dewd on December 17, 2009, at 10:24:10
In reply to Re: Longing for Ts kindness, posted by Helana on December 17, 2009, at 10:01:48
Aww thanks Helena, im so happy that you would tell me your story it meant a lot to me :) Ill try to reply the best that i can since ive only had half my breakfast right about now lol You know its like my jaw just dropped when i read your comment, that is kinda how i feel too... my t has me with her supervisor so its like all 3 of us in the supervisors office talking about my "transference" the supervisor says that it was slowing my therapy down you know. It hurts so much because when my t first brought it up she sounded kinda nervous and was like i hope thats okay, i looked down at the floor and managed a smile and said sure... i know exactly how you feel Helena, u know, doing things because you love ur t and want to keep hoping it will get better. Since my friend just passed away that was also her client i decided the way i can be there in support of my t is by trusting her more and not losing all the progress she and i have seen in my life, so as you might have guessed im there all 3 of us, but it hurts though cuz i feel so sad my friend passed away and she says that she needs to make boundaries about hugging, and that all phone calls are directed now to the supervisor until i can manage to work past the transference.
Its frustrating because i called my t my best friend because that was how it felt, u know? with a best friend you can tell them anything and know that they love u for who you are, theres no longer a distancing but it becomes very meaningful, so in my lack of better words i said that she was my best friend, although it was just a way of describing what i already had with her, and not that i felt we needed to be something more than patient-therapist.
Im hanging in strong because im happy to be with my t and become closer by telling her all of this now IM sorry for all MY rambling hehehe :)
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