Posted by Dewd on December 18, 2009, at 16:43:15
In reply to Re: Longing for Ts kindness, posted by Dewd on December 18, 2009, at 16:41:04
>>not strange at all...this made me cry because I love when I feel like that. It's like I set myself up for self destruction, according to T, but I can see it now, that I get in this way of thinking where I miss so much the way it was and feel so aweful and want to just call her, make an appointment, walk in, hug her and start crying because I just miss her...and then I see like you see in some strange moment that nothing is really different...I mean it is different, it's changed, it doesn't look the same, but I still love her and she still cares about me so really...nothing has changed, right? idk sometimes. I guess maybe what I fear is the truth of why it's changed and if it's going to change more. Like she's already withdrawn some, and i sorta feel like I can't trust her, so what if I can't rust that she'll always be here for me...what if one day that changes too. grrrr...nvmind.<<
i really wanna ask my t about this next time i see her, but i always remember what my t said, she never ment it as a rejection... she said she would never reject me, i know its sooo heartbraking and so scary to believe this... but you know... i try to see it kind of like this, my t said that we become closer to others when we open up and take that scary leap, and when we share personal things... lets try to take that leap, to trust our t's to show our t's that we can trust them becasue our relationship is just that great
>>>That was so wonderful to hear dewd! Did you drop our of school after you felt like your heart was broken? That's exactly what I did, funny huh (maybe not a perfect choice of a word). I am going back too lol...to be a therapist (something I've always wanted to do). And you know what, I was thinking of writing a letter to my T for the holiday, but now I'm definitely going to! Thank you for reminding me of how much I mean to my T because you're absolutely right and to be honest i've never really wanted to believe it until now. I don't know why, but seeing how similar our stories are...I just know that it isn't coincidence and my T doesn't really care...I think it's obvious that your T cares about you and it makes me realize that my T obviously truly cares about me :)<<<my whole world was just shattered, at times i didnt have enough emotional strenght to even stand on my own two feet in the morning... i couldnt focus, it felt like school work was secondary when it came to my wellbeing... how can i care about anything else when my heart isnt whole...
Helana im sooo happy your taking that leap and are going to write a letter u know sometimes is so much more nicer to write a letter that way you can express how you really feel without anyworries
hehehehe thats so strange i want to be a therapist too!
my t inspired me to be a t, isnt that cool
>>>.I think it's obvious that your T cares about you<<<these words really touched my heart
>>>it makes me realize that my T obviously truly cares about me :)<<<
:)
>>>would love to tell you how it happened, but what exactly is "it" that u are asking about? <<<
I thought it was really great that you are your t have such a strong relationship, i really want to help more ( cuz my t said that seeing things in a different perspective really helps)it would be so really cool to know why your t began to do things a little differently, my t said she wants to help me feel better and for me to know that she cares about me just the same, shes helping me feel better because she feels that im not talking about other things like my depression .i wanted to cry so much, on the insied im in tears... im so sorry that you had to feel the way i felt, i would never want anyone to go through what im going through,it makes me so happy that you have such a wonderful t who really cares about these feelings, its nice to know though that ur not in it alone... thank you so much for caring :) heres a song that i hear all the time because i feel like every single lyric really relates to how i feel the band is( nick jonas and the administration - who i am ), lol i hope you like the song! im thinking of showing my t the song mayb
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