Posted by ElaineM on October 27, 2006, at 16:58:24
In reply to Re: how is regular? (**child abuse trauma mild**) » ElaineM, posted by Lindenblüte on October 27, 2006, at 6:48:23
Li thanks for that little message. You are one of the dearest people I've ever met. You give so much to so many who post - even frustrating ones like myself (didn't say that to get a "no you're not" back either). It really helps you know. Makes a difference to me :')
[sorry if that feels awkward]I went to ultrasound this morning. It hurt alot to drink that much - and fasting. It always hurts to drink at all - I don't usually have that much liquid in an entire day. The hardest part was that they didn't offer any draping (if you get my drift). It was quite humiliating. I spent the whole hour frozen like a statue, and scared that someone else would barge in the door - though I saw her lock it. I've never been THAT exposed during one - but I was too shocked to say anything. I just wanted all the images captured so I could leave. She did tell me at the end that she wanted to redo some of the internal - and I just flipped out :( I started panicking and repeating in a soft robotic voice, like, "No. no i can't now. i can't do more right now. I'm not comfortable with more today." She said that the report may have inconclusive parts, but I hope what she has is enough. I'll just have to go back, but I knew i had enough for one day. I'll just have to wait now and see.
I'm so weepy. Alot happened today (not all sh*tty). I'll write more later. I'm tired and sore :-(
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