Posted by seldomseen on December 23, 2007, at 14:38:53
In reply to sigh..., posted by muffled on December 23, 2007, at 11:38:05
Oh muffled, I am so sorry this is so triggery and awful for you. I know lady. I know.
First and foremost, you don't have to a damn thing about this if you don't want to. I can guarentee that the feelings you have are legitimate based on your history and, in my opinion, there is absolutely nothing wrong with where you are right now. YOU have active agency in your life and its your decision as to whether or not you want to try something different.
All I am saying is that, for me at least, it has been truly worth trying.
My poor T, I just unleashed all of the venom that I had held in for years. I really had made sex, men, feeling vulnerable the root of all evil in the world. I even hated being a woman and weak. Why wouldn't I? Up until then it HAD been the root of all evil.
Like I said, my T and I talked for YEARS about sex. My attitude wasn't something that changed overnight and I STILL work on it.
I would talk to my T first (and two years really isn't a long time with a therapist), but only when you are ready to and decide you want to. Again, this is entirely under your control and how you feel is right and normal (IMO) based on your history - and you don't even have to remember THAT, somehow our bodies just know.
Peace to you.
Seldom.
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