Posted by muffled on December 23, 2007, at 23:53:08
In reply to Re: sigh... » muffled, posted by seldomseen on December 23, 2007, at 14:38:53
> Oh muffled, I am so sorry this is so triggery and awful for you. I know lady. I know.
*OMG, it was like my T was HERE. That line sounded SO much like my T!!! LOL, I bet I read it 100x!!!
It brought me great comfort. Thank you.
> First and foremost, you don't have to a damn thing about this if you don't want to.*again, just like my T! and also VERY comforting to be reminded that I am in control....
>I can guarentee that the feelings you have are legitimate based on your history and, in my opinion, there is absolutely nothing wrong with where you are right now.
*AGAIN, what wonderful affirmation.
I needed that.
I still struggle that nothing could've happened...
How could I NOT know??????>YOU have active agency in your life and its your decision as to whether or not you want to try something different.
* :-)
> All I am saying is that, for me at least, it has been truly worth trying.
Ok. I hear this.....there is hope. I don't care if I ever feel good, but I want to make hubby happy, and I expect that make me happy too.
> My poor T, I just unleashed all of the venom that I had held in for years.
*you yelled at him?!! I pretty tough on mine too.
> even hated being a woman and weak. Why wouldn't I? Up until then it HAD been the root of all evil.
*some of my 'peeps' seem to be male, cuz I think that made me feel safer. I was always a tomboy too. And extreemly strong for my size. I still struggle with showing weakness and letting others help. Babble has helped me in this way, alot. I can safely(relatively of course, this IS the internet!!) be weak and show my weakness.
> Like I said, my T and I talked for YEARS about sex. My attitude wasn't something that changed overnight and I STILL work on it.
*sigh...I hope for my DH sake its not too long...
> I would talk to my T first , but only when you are ready to and decide you want to. Again, this is entirely under your control and how you feel is right and normal (IMO) based on your history - and you don't even have to remember THAT, somehow our bodies just know.
*Oh crap. My body knows something. But I dunno what. I think there's parts that know more, but its kids, and those memories are more feelings, oh ya, implicit, rather than narrative memories???? or SOMEthing like that..
> Peace to you.*and to you too.
Thank you so much.
M
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