Posted by slugdoo on August 6, 2007, at 19:09:46
In reply to Re: I am so hurt, I told my T I am not coming back » slugdoo, posted by LadyBug on August 6, 2007, at 15:54:15
I didn't write everything because it hard to think right now, but he did say he didn't care about me. He didn't think about me between sessions. And get this he told me there are some clients who he doesn't look forward to in seeing because of their anger torwards him or some teenagers that don't want to be there. He said that I wasn't one of those clients but still...
I am just shocked at today. He seemed to treat me so cruely and right now I don't want hear anyone defending him because I don't belive what he did was for my benefit. I am feeling worse, please don't justify him. I know the boundries, and I know he does't care about me like his wife an kid, but that fact is he said he DIDN"T care about me at all. If I died, it would be like "so what" .I need support right now, my heart is torn in two because I thought he did care, maybe the only one person who did, the person I turned to when I was feeling so bad, someone I could talk to about the sh*t inside and now that person is gone or maybe was just "fake" to begin with. It took me forever to trust him and now that is gone. I don't trust a word he says. Once he told me he was a great liar. Well I guess I should have listened. What a smuck I am.
Why do I fall for this? Why do I think people care when they don't, they cast me away, don't ever want to talk to me, treat me like I don't exhist? What is so f*cking wrong with me that people don't like me?
I feel like such a fool to believe in therapy and now therapy has messed me up more than I already was. What are they a bunch of fake Phd.s walking around getting paid big bucks to act like they care, but really clients mean nothing. I think he should win an academy award for his acting with me.
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