Posted by slugdoo on August 7, 2007, at 9:56:01
In reply to Re: More, posted by B2chica on August 7, 2007, at 7:57:59
I had a dream about this last night, I woke up thinking my session really didn't happen. But reality kicked in. I didn't get up until 10 am and normally I am up by 6 at least. So I got 12 hours of sleep, I am kinda amazed by that.
My heart hurts so freaking bad.You know my DH just called I told him what happened yesterday, and he actually called just now to check up on me. I am surprised because he hasn't done that in years. I told him I was going to do EMDR yesterday, so he knew the session would be a big one, but not in this way.
But you know what , I am actually worried about my T because I know of his heart problems, arthimica problems, well he tells me he is going for a EKG. So that means he is having problems again, and as mad as I at him, it worries me. BUt why should I? He is just my robot T who isn't real.
I never know he will call or not, he does if I tell him to, and when I don't say, he sometimes does anyways. But I don't want to talk to him because I don't think I can contain my anger or my tears. I really feel like telling him off. What a jerk he is, what a liar!In my phone call I even appolized for frusterating him, I really don't mean to do that. If he thinking am frusterating him, how does he think I feel myself, I frusterate myself even worse.
Can you believe I am doing nothing but crying? I feel so bad. I am sorry if I am repeating myself.As far as his client that died, they had diabeties and they were only 45. If it didnt matter, why did he tell me?
Uggg! Is angry/sad a feeling? Because that sure how it feels. I hope he felt the wacks that some of you have given him. I wish I could do that, but I just can't hurt anyone. Besides he probably doesn't FEEL anything anyways. and I thought I had that problem, well my T tops the cake, insensitive jerk he is. He can just "bite me" I think I know why his car is gold, because clients pee on it, that is why.
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