Posted by ElaineM on June 18, 2006, at 10:21:07
In reply to Re: keep this a secret? ELAINEM, posted by Fall Girl on June 18, 2006, at 8:37:04
FallGirl: You do not come off strong. None of you do. I get scared from even the most neutral words. From my past experiences, it takes alot of time to get an appointment with another T. It does sound less abrupt to not give him up completely though. I don't think I ever could, unless he hit me or threatened me or something like that. Though I could never picture him doing anything so unkind.
I wish I had done something sooner, because I worry that things with him could progress too quickly now to a point where I'd be forced to do something drastic, before I have time to set up anything else. And I do think I'll be devastated if I lost him, or had to leave him for any reason.
I'm so stupid. Too stupid for being 25. I don't even deserve all of your help, because I still can't control how I think and feel about him. I don't want to let all of you guys down. I wish I wasn't so afraid of physical stuff cause then I'd just be able to go with however he chooses to proceed. And maybe nothing would happen. I'd be worrying now for nothing. I hate having so many issues. I'm sorry.
El
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