Posted by ElaineM on June 16, 2006, at 19:17:32
In reply to Re: can professionals keep this a secret? » ElaineM, posted by fairywings on June 16, 2006, at 17:38:56
Fairywings, He is in private practice and I don't pay personally. He knows I don't have alot of money. That's part of the reason I feel so ungrateful. When things were normal, all that time, he was doing this for very little. That was really generous of him. He works mainly by himself, with two young T's underneath him. They are just rarely around from what I hear. At least not when I'm there.
He says he will never end it with me. I can't picture him doing it, I just worry that it is only because I behave well and say nice things, and help him out. I sort of think he could maybe even love me. I don't think I could handle it if he terminated me. I'm tired of losing T's. I can't do it again.
He does know of my past abuse by my father, and a smaller incident a few years ago. That's why I think he wants to make sure he's extra caring. That's why I want to make sure I don't mistake caring for something else. I can't believe he would use his knowledge of my past to hurt me. But he does know that I have no one else, and am lonely. It's embarassing to say but, I'm desperate, and he knows that. I wish I could just know for sure what will happen.
El
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