Posted by annierose on October 21, 2005, at 11:32:42
In reply to Re: Yes, lunch it is! » Annierose, posted by fallsfall on October 21, 2005, at 10:39:57
Falls -
Do you want to share what is going on? I'm sorry that you didn't leave feeling connected. I do know how that feels. Yucky! :-( I'm a good listener.
I felt happy that as soon as I layed down, she asked, "so why were you so angry yesterday?". I'm glad she didn't wait for me to start. We went over the 3 previous sessions and I pointed out different verbal exchanges and she explained her part, what she was trying to get at. I can't remember it all, except for one point. She felt she got ahead of heself in our theraputic relationship. That I really need to stop coming from a place of fear when I interact with people. That "we have more work to do" with that. Silly me likes hearing I have more work in a certain area so I can stick around awhile longer .... That rang true for me, the fear part. When I see my family, I am fearful ... what are they going to say, how am I going to defend myself. My T pointed out that I must feel immobilized (true) and she thought that I must present myself differently from what I feel. True again.
I feel she did think about the week. She did her homework and helped me understand where she was coming from. Again she let me know that I was her concern, not my father's feelings. She touched a little on death and grandparenting .... made some interesting points. As a grandparent, it is the time to get it "right", and my parents demostrate over and over again that they pay little attention to my children.I mentioned that her frame of reference for how a family interacts is vastly different than my experience as "normal".
Near the end, I asked her how much time was left .... 9 minutes. So I thought it was just the perfect amount of time to start sharing my daydreams, and I was brave enough to share one about her. Thought about my babble friends, that the hardest moments can be the most productive.
Sorry I'm rambling, repeating thoughts. I'm at work and keep getting interrupted. Back to the grind. I feel better. I wish you did too.
((((( FALLS)))))))))
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