Posted by ghost on September 22, 2005, at 11:34:11
In reply to Re: S.ideation ***strong trigger*** » ghost, posted by B2chica on September 22, 2005, at 11:25:18
oh, sweetie, I’ll hug you forever. I wish I could help you! That’s awful about your boss—he knows you’re having health issues now, doesn’t he? That’d just be unethical to fire you.
I think you might need to go to a hospital, too. (a good one—not the nightmare one you were at last time.) I understand what it’s like to want to do some things (like your friend’s wedding) but not want to live otherwise. It’s like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. you’re just stuck. but I think if the feelings of s. are too strong like the are now, you’re better off missing a wedding—I think your friend would understand that your health comes first. if you think you can make it till the weekend, maybe things will subside? only you can really tell.
and get rid of the blade! even if it means carving up your desk to dull it. Do anything with it—just don’t hurt yourself with it. I wanted to do that before. but I dulled the blade so it wouldn’t cut. I think I vented a little bit by the effort it takes to dull a blade. or stab something other than you. anything other than you.
don’t forget, you have TWO appointments today with people who care about you and your welfare very much. Can you make it until then?
LOTS of love,
ghost
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