Posted by B2chica on September 21, 2005, at 11:46:26
In reply to Re: S.ideation ***strong trigger*** » B2chica, posted by cubic_me on September 21, 2005, at 11:14:12
just within this last 1/2 hour the thoughts of s. have increased. i'm not busy at work today so i could just leave go to my 'place' and do it.
but i don't understand, i don't want death (i don't think) yet i'm craving to act. i wish i could see T today. but i have appt tomorrow. soon enough i guess.
i know the hospital is always an option. but right now i don't see it as one. why am i going down?why won't these thoughts/urges leave me alone. i feel if i keep complaining of this they're going to send me to a permanent facility. i'm afraid to tell anyone.
i see pdoc tomorrow also....tomorrow can't come quickly enough for me. besides, i have plans for saturday night. maybe that's contributing cuz it's hectic busy but still.
maybe i can set a date for me and if i'm not better by next wed. i'll go to hospital. maybe they can swap my Rx around?i'm so tired cubic_me.
b2c.
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