Posted by daisym on June 14, 2004, at 0:43:58
In reply to Re: Suicidal ideation question - *trigger potential* » daisym, posted by antigua on June 13, 2004, at 18:31:26
Somehow staying away from each other doesn't seem to be the answer. I need you because I know you understand what I'm going through. And that is so important to me right now. I feel like I'm in shadow somehow, like people see what they want to and nothing more, and nothing less. I feel like screaming, "Can't you see I'm hurting?! Please DON'T give me yet another problem to solve!" But of course I swallow the screams like I've always done.
I know I have to find a way to do this myself. But right now, I need to lean a little, especially on my Therapist and on Babble. Writing helps me more than anything else and I just can't keep coping with the memories on my own. I need to tell him, to take someone with me into the dark places. Maybe he can bring a flashlight or a torch and banish the demons. I'm glad you called your therapist. I think you need her too.
Please keep posting. Even if it is one sentence, "today sucked." Then I'll know that you at least had today. I hope your daughter is coping and not driving you nuts. Talk about a life distraction!
Hugs from me.
Daisy
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