Posted by susan47 on July 31, 2009, at 18:22:11
In reply to C.W., posted by susan47 on July 31, 2009, at 18:09:26
How Strange to realize I had been reduced to a nuisance by a man who claims to care about people, to be in a helping profession.
How strange, How Karloff, to realize that your methods were always punitive, not helping at all.
If there were a god, would the possibility that your eyes might be opened be worth a prayer? Since there is no god, and therefore all prayer is comfort to the distressed, the weak of mind, the ill-willed and the unable ... disabled to life, I think you may be, dear CW, if you had any idea how large my love is, and was, and always will be in spite of any common sense that says otherwise ... if you had any idea at all, you would not hide. You would smile, you be joyous indeed that there are people capable of wishing you so much good ... and care for responsibility.
Yes. I have mine. You also have yours, but you haven't been able to even say this to yourself, have you? Have you?
Your silence is all the answer ever needed, ever given ... such a fool. No doubt the bigger fool - the one who loves - will be silenced one day also. But as long as I draw breath, as long as my body lives, it will always yearn for another love, like the impossible one, like this one.
The beauty in life is its passing, and ending, and ever having been.
I love you. Too bad. Suck it up. But don't punish me anymore, please. Enough with your methods of caring. My children are fine, better than fine, they have a mother who, in spite of not being the Perfect One you may have been raised to believe in ... too much television, perhaps, my darling one? .... in spite of not being perfect, I love my children, and they know this without a doubt, and I protect them and I fight for their rights, and they know this ... and they know I am so much more than you'll ever even guess.