Posted by Susan47 on April 25, 2005, at 15:31:02
In reply to Re: Crap crap crap » Susan47, posted by sunny10 on April 25, 2005, at 13:13:28
Hi sweetie. I haven't read your last post on the thread but I think it's cool that we're on at the same time. You know I was just talking in general, right? But in fact, nothing any of us ever says is "in general", is it? I mean, it all relates to something we've experienced. But about my therapist, this man C, you know? I realize now, I think, that everything that was emotional to me, was sexual to him. Because of course he wasn't emotionally involved in the therapy relationship, and I was. I'm beginning to come to terms with that. And lose some of my anger over the way that I think he needed to be needed by me, then pretty much dumped me with his fears. There isn't any doubt in my mind at all that I was a difficult patient because he didn't discuss my feelings of love for him with me. And attraction, yes there was a lot of sexual attraction from me for him as well. He just basically smoothed that over as though it didn't exist. I certainly gave him lots of reasons to talk to me about stuff. It was the worst thing, I really did go crazy for a long, long time. Too long. I lost a lot of touch with reality.
If I hadn't had you and Alex and Toph here with me, to name a very few, I know I wouldn't be feeling as whole as I do today. So thank you.
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