Posted by katia on November 8, 2003, at 0:40:21
In reply to Glad you are here - » katia, posted by puravida on November 7, 2003, at 20:23:57
Hi Puravida,
Yeah, I'm not happy one bit about not drinking. i can't lie. it sucks. I know I'll be thankful one day, but it's just definitely NOT today. I've been "on the wagon" for about one month now, apart from two slips when I went camping alone. It's been hard. In combo with not drinking, I also quit Depakote (as I"m upping on Lamictal) and felt just awfullll.... for a good week. I think I might be coming out of it a bit. I upped the Lam. 100mg today; i think that might've helped. we'll see tomorrow.
I'm still in the stages where I feel like a pouty little kid cuz' I want my wine! Whahhhhhh.....stamp my feet I'M NOT HAPPY ONE BIT!!! sulk sulk sulk, hate every mintute of it!
yuk to sobriety and ever constant awareness. I want wine and that warm feeling that follows. The world is such a better place after one/two glasses. BUT, I'm resolved to kick it this time. The only things keeping me going is I think I might have the life I want if i quit AND I won't quit forever - just two years. By that time, the beast will be tamed, I know it will. and i will reintroduce alcohol, but in a controlled civilized way. I won't be in the same place as before so I won't need it like I did before because after two years I'll have evolved!
that's me.
good to know someone else out there is trying sobriety!
good luck to you.
katia
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