Posted by katia on October 15, 2003, at 2:00:30
In reply to Re: Antabuse » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on October 14, 2003, at 14:53:13
I am here supporting your efforts too Barbara. It's a shame your small town is too small townish. Some AA meetings can be good and you don't have to believe in all that crap to get the support. And just the two I've been to have help solidify my decision and help me get through. It makes it more real, ya know? If there's even someone you can talk to, call - someone at all to support you when you need to stay away - divert you just before you take a drink, I strongly recommend finding that person. It's too hard to do alone; esp. if your husband drinks in front of you. Maybe he could support you during the first month or so and not drink himself either?
The other thing that I've done is tell everyone I've quit so i am held to it a bit more.
I was talking with someone tonight at work. I said, you know how good you start to feel after you haven't drunk in awhile? that's how I'm starting to feel. so I forgot all those reasons why I stopped. it doesn't make sense to stop - I feel good! Like I've already forgotten how shitty it makes me.....I'm taking one day at a time. My committment is two years though. It almost feels like a death. I'm in mourning.
I know these posts aren't instant when you might need instant support, but I'll support you in the ways that I can.