Posted by Shy_Girl on May 19, 2005, at 14:21:48
In reply to Re: Lock up gave me PTSD *trigger* » Shy_Girl, posted by Larry Hoover on May 19, 2005, at 7:42:42
Thank-you so much Larry for the important info and for taking the time to respond to my post. Your help is always very much appreciated. I hold your opinions in high regard.
> The nurses answered your questions, and then you kept asking. You're being assessed on those behaviours too.
Yikes...everything I did was recorded? That's freaky.
> I'm going to ask you a totally tangential question. What would you give to never have another suicidal episode,
Hmmm...tough one, like I mentioned once or twice, I actually *LIKE* being suicidal sometimes. I guess to avoid an unpleasant suicidal episode I would give all the money in the world (sorry about the cliche).
> and never end up on another 72-hour hold?
...this one is easy...MY LIFE
> Possible answers include medication and counselling.
Oops...answers not what people are looking for eh? I dunno, I'm weary of "pscyhiatry" right now. Counselling is ok though...that's just talking. My p-doc is ok too, she mainly talks to me. I think I can counsel myself though...it shouldn't be too hard.
>>>> I wonder if it is some sort of behaviour modification thing...punish me by ignoring me when I'm "bad" and giving me attention when I'm "good"?
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> Of course it is! These nurses are very specially trained. You don't think the other patients weren't observing what was going on?Hehe, I guess I was a "bad" influence.
> They very likely cut you extra slack because you're a first-timer. Don't expect similar leeway if you return for another "visit". I'm serious. You don't want to end up in the rubber room (protective isolation facility, heh heh), with depo-Haldol i.m.
OMG, no, never again! I'll rather die than end up in a rubber room!!! Now I'm serious. Geez, not all suicidal people are "crazy" and need to be locked up!
> If you had pushed one little bit more, I am pretty sure you'd have found out what it means to be committed for involuntary psychiatric care, the formal process that involves lawyers et al.
Eeekk...now you're really scaring me! I better read up on the laws etc., gotta learn to be my own advocate!
> I urge you to reconsider this whole timeline in terms of your own decisions.I shall try. :-)
> Can we summarize a bit? It's clear you don't like the involuntary psych procedures. What behavioural choices are open to you to minimize or prevent their occurrence?
Hmmm...never ever do a stupid thing like take an overdose and then tell a doctor about it. Never ever make suicial gestures...it's either all the way or no way at all. Try to live a happy life and not complain too much?
> In your states of remission from suicidality, I again strongly urge you to push for and establish a self-treatment and management plan.Yep, my plan is to phone the distress centre and have someone listen to me and make me feel better.
> Medication can be a cornerstone for such a plan. Techniques learned in cognitive therapy can be solid foundations. Finding someone specific to call in an emergency could be another resource.Thanks Lar, I will go read some CBT self help books.
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