Posted by Shy_Girl on May 19, 2005, at 13:57:57
In reply to Re: Lock up gave me PTSD *trigger* » Shy_Girl, posted by alexandra_k on May 19, 2005, at 3:16:11
> Yeah. Communicating. I understand that. Its a way of trying to say just how bad things feel. What they need to assess is how likely you are to ACT on your thoughts / urges. Especially if the thoughts / urges are frequent.
Hmmm...maybe it's not always about communicating...because a lot of times there isn't anyone I want to tell. Am I communicating to myself? Maybe in a perverse way I like to make myself suffer. I can't predict how likely I am to act on my thoughts...it's probably not very likely though.
> Sounds like you said the right sorts of things to me... I guess their thinking is 'better safe than sorry'.
Yep, I overheard the p-doc say to two residents, "...But she's never had an assessment." Anyways, I couldn't have been that crazy in there, cuz they only give me a dx of adjustment disorder.
> Yeah. It was your first admission?
Yes. I'd never ever been admitted/treated in any hospital ever (well, except for when I was born).
>I was pretty freaked out in my first admission. I can remember a bit of just how frightened and alone I felt.
Yep, very scary...not to mention embarrassing for my family. My parents, esp. my Mom didn't want me to stay in the hospital. Thank goodness I was let out the day before Chinese NewYear...apparently, it is extremely bad luck to not have the household present on NewYear's Day. Someone from my family came to see me everyday, but it was still extremely boring and scary.
> ECT tends to be done in the morning (need to have time with no food / fluids before the anasthetic). But I get what you mean. It is pretty scairey.The thought of people getting ECT scares me to death! I know it is very different from the "olden" days, but still...I can't get over the fact that it is basically like electrocution! Super Yikes! The thought of people being restrained also scares the cr*p out of me. Did I mention that I thought psychiatry can sometimes seem barbaric? Shiver me timbers...eeekkk.
> > What was seclusion like? I have no idea at all. Is it just a time-out room? Do you get locked in? That would sound very scary.
> ****TRIGGER****
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> Yeah you get locked in.....etc. etc.OMG, that sounds horrible! I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Do you think going through that experience helped you in the long run?
You mentioned you only wear the hospital gown in seclusion? That's odd, I had to wear one the whole time I was there...stupid oversized gown...no shoes either...guess they knew I was a flight risk.
> The staff just observe you for a while...
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> Then talk to you a bit etc.
> If they figure you are ok they will take you into the yard every hour or so for a cigarette.Hmmm...I don't smoke, does explain why I wasn't let outside?
> The first time I was hospitalised I was 2 weeks in hospital before I tried to hang myself.
I'm so sorry about what happened to you. I'm glad you made it out alive.
> It is no fun at all.
> Don't go that route.
> Please.Mental note taken and re-taken...done and done...no going that route for me. It's either all the way or no way at all for me.
> I really do think things will get to be better for you as you come to learn about the sorts of things you can do to influence your mood etc. So your emotions don't feel completely at the mercy of external forces...
Looking forward to learning. :-)
> Some of your obeservations seem very insightful to me :-) You aren't raving bonkers ;-)
Hehe...glad I'm not bonkers. :-P
thanks again Alexandra...your experiences are really going to help me
Thank-you so much for sharing that...it's quite the wake up call.
jenny
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