Posted by lostsailor on July 15, 2003, at 21:24:45
In reply to Re: Therapist/ Friend update-sailor, posted by kara lynne on July 15, 2003, at 21:03:42
I am whimsical on the concepts of my "friends", and while one day I think they are great, the next I see they may be but not to me.. I guess they are great but more to each other than me since I became “different”, who has not lived up to their expectations. Remember post re: who I was vs. who I am now???
I am a recluse and becoming a bit demanding in what I want out of friends ---trust, understanding!?!?!?! I have been told that is common amongst friends but don't really see it with mine. I mean, thanks to one, know how long I have been seeing a shrink and the more I "look into"--i.e., sorta, spy---the more I have seen that I want new friends--if there are any that are really trustworthy. Even your example, do you really "know" what she has told him or will. Maybe I am being paranoid, but I here paranoia never got anyone in trouble for trusting too much:)
I mean, I am pretty easy to get along with but am sick of backstabbing and all the other things I “see” happen. I stay “in touch” with most vicariously so I know what is going on in their lives. I mean I always want to be ‘here for them” if needed, but no-longer expect the same from them and haven’t for a while. Now I am just seeing that it is not just in my mind….i wonder if I have a letter I wrote to the ONE friend I really trust with every aspect of my life. I is really an ode to all friendships…he really deserves it even though I push him away constantly, he knows that I don’t mean to.
~tony
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