Posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 31, 2002, at 17:10:42
In reply to Re: Tabitha, posted by Roo on August 31, 2002, at 14:42:01
Funny, the grandiose fantasies. I always imagine throwing this huge party and being the toast of it, belting out a song and rocking out the crowd. Being universally loved and desired, of course. A catalyst for wild & sexy fun, waking everybody up from their stupor.
That whole thing about suddenly being too good for rules about "appropriateness" is so true. Then I get the terrible shame attacks afterward, since I"m ordinarily so shy & reserved.
I used to send all kinds of emotionally promiscuous emails too. Discovering Babble has helped avert some of that. Of course it's best if you just find friends who don't mind.
Had this idea I could just go out and meet men anywhere, talk to strangers everyplace I go (which is so not me). I think I'll at least go shopping, buy some cute stuff, then when I swing back down, they'll hang in my closet with the clothing evidence of my last upswing, since I usually wear plain old jeans and t-shirts all the time.
As to the mood stabilisers, well, I'm only taking 200mg neurontin, but I think it's not doing s*** anymore. I'm really intolerent of them. Tried topamax recently, but it made me too dizzy. I need a new doc, since not liking my doc contributes to avoiding going back.
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