Posted by twinleaf on December 6, 2008, at 23:16:06
In reply to Memories (triggers), posted by Wittgensteinz on December 5, 2008, at 16:03:36
Your post is so moving, and so interesting. It starts on quite a surface level, with questions asked by your pdoc, then progresses to memories of an abusive sexual experience when you were a teenager, and then way back to fragmentary, very distressing and painful memories connected to how your mother dealt with your body when you were very young. I think the reason not many people responded right away is that what you wrote was so powerful and felt so true and real that it had a strong impact- enough to make people like me make painful connections to how my own mother handled my body when I was 3-4. . The details are different, but the emotional impact is painfully similiar, It took me a while before I felt ready to respond.
You let us see what your therapy is like from moment to moment. It's wonderful that you can work in this way- I'm SURE it will help you a lot, although, like everyone, you do have to keep going over the same memories and feelings until they loosen their grip on you.
One thought that I had- your analyst is obviously doing a superb job of being with you and helping you express all these feelings and memories. But why is your pdoc asking you so many questions about your sex life? I think he's only supposed to ask ONE question- whether or not a medication he prescribed has altered your libido or your sexual expression. Instead, he sounds like he's trying to be another therapist. If you can find a way to shut him up, that would be helpful. Maybe your analyst can find a clever way to help with this.
I hope you will always feel safe and confident posting here. What you write is relevant and helpful to everyone- we just aren't always as articulate!
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