Posted by B2chica on January 25, 2008, at 15:16:32
In reply to Re: So he asked........... TRIGGERS VERY LONG » B2chica, posted by rskontos on January 25, 2008, at 14:39:07
now THAT's the kinda mom i understand.
i TOTALLY had to shut off my emotions, as they were ALWAYS held against me...pitted against me is a better phrase. cept mine was a psychological more vs a physical one.
i was egged on to get an extreme response no matter what the response be it crying, screaming or whatever, then when i'd give it i'd catch hell for it, or it would be twisted that i was the violent horrible daughter and she the innocent 'mother'...etc.
she was a constant roller coaster of emotions never knowing what was around the next corner, she could be happy giggling one minute and throwing an appliance at you the next...and i mean the next second!BUT i digress....
you have such incredible qualities rk, i can't believe that you can't see even a glimpse of them, they shine with such gentleness and safety i can't even explain. if this were utopia, you'd be a healer full of enlightenment.
and maybe you can't see her yet, but i want you to know that i picture her peeking around a corner winking gently at me so that maybe only i can see her, but she knows i see her.....she's there. and someday soon you will see her too.
maybe soon i'll tell you her color, she has her own...even though we've never met, i can see her color. (its a good one i promise).
poster:B2chica
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