Posted by rskontos on January 25, 2008, at 14:33:53
In reply to Re: So he asked........... TRIGGERS VERY LONG, posted by Happyflower on January 25, 2008, at 13:02:56
Happyflower, You don't have to get the anger because I am not sure I go....but yes my mom used hers to I am not sure why I know she did not marry my father except to get out of her father's house. Nice thing to tell your children huh....and I don't remember her friends, I dissociated big time. No I do remember one of them taking us to Florida but me and my sister that fought like cats and dogs that is the only time we got along. We did not stay long. I wonder now what she told my father?
During my 20's I began to think most men just wanted one thing and they began to bug me that is the bug and insect analog, bad one probably. That was just a mad me too yelling in my head. I shut down thinking about how I looked because both sides of my family, my mom's and my fathers talked about my mom and how she was and how we were going to be like her??? so I dissociated from all of them. And in my 20's I was so dissociative that period is a big blur....
He did ask what changed. He said I remember you seemed more open and said no I wasn't I learned how to seem that way without actually being that way. I knew how to be very closed and private while seeming to be open. I dont think he understood and I shut down with him.....he did not seem to understand and I got frustrated. rsk
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