Posted by alexandra_k on October 1, 2006, at 23:53:27
In reply to Re: Do you believe this? » alexandra_k, posted by muffled on October 1, 2006, at 21:44:36
> *** mebbe you could just start by talking bout stuff that triggers you. like people talking behind, and gossip, and exclusivity,and people saying you smart, things like that.
Hmm...
<pout>
How did you get to know me so well...
<cross look>
Well... I guess I can't argue with that...
;-)> And its ok if you get upset, cuz THATS when you can process and learn stuff with your T. If you don't feel like talking bout something, then do it, lay it on the table and see what happens.
I'm a bit scared of showing her my emotions. Because sometimes... They are very strong. And people find that aversive. Hell... *I* find that aversive. I guess I shouldn't assume that she will find it aversive... But it is part of people generally and our culture in particular to find intense emotions to be aversive - isn't it? I'm not sure how she copes with the bits of emotions I've shown her. I remember one time she looked really very surprised... I was fine... Then I started raving about something for maybe 20 seconds and was kinda wound up with tears streaming... And then I freaked a bit and pulled myself together and was back to calm. All in the space of about 30 seconds.
I remember one of my t's... I was reading my file and she had wrote (on the basis of a single meeting) INTENSE and she underlined it about 4 times so strongly she almost ripped a whole in the page.
:-(
> ***Mebbe don't worry so much her. mebbe just put some of the iside Alex on the paper, and see what she does with it.
> Let Alex out, all her anger or pain or insecurities or confusion etc, whatever, let it come out.I... I don't know what to say...
Sometimes... I find it hard to talk. I wouldn't say anything at all... T's don't like that :-( So I've learned to talk. But I talk about... Stuff that doesn't matter. What matters? I don't know. How to get to what matters? I don't know. Sometimes I think something matters and then I say it and it doesn't seem to matter. I don't know. Confused...
> Take care Alex, you a feisty little sweetie you are!!! :-)
> MuffledThanks muffled.
((((muffled))))
I wish I wasn't feisty :-(
I'd rather be... Kind.
Take care.
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