Posted by ElaineM on June 24, 2006, at 9:46:41
In reply to Re: You were right **trigger ?** » ElaineM, posted by Poet on June 23, 2006, at 17:51:49
...I think. If he's doing and saying all these things to push my buttons(which it still hurts too much to fully believe), then I feel I could be doing the same. I'm always asking him questions. He likes that and says to ask more of anything. And he says he likes being able to tell someone his feelings, and fears and history. He says he has never trusted someone this way. And I keep asking, and listening and telling him how good he's doing, and that I understand how hard it is to uncensor yourself (especially being a T). I even told him how sorry I feel for him, and that it sounds like being a T is lonely. (I don't think I could ever be one, even if I was well-adjusted.) He tells me all of his sad family past, and growing up, and all the ways he used to cope. And I truly believe that he's never been like this before. It sounds like I'm being full of myself, but I think it would break him, or make him blow up with resentment towards the world for being open with another. (I've asked before if his other clients appreciate the changes in his technique, and he never answers straight, so that's why I think it's only me) And he says I'm the first he's ever really understood. (And there's nothing "romantic" in that, he's just exposing his humaness)
I can't help asking stuff, to figure him out, but perhaps it sounds like I'm coming on to him. I don't know how to be regular.
Anyways, thanks for being in my corner Poet. Sitting in a room with someone else will be harder than hard, but I am glad that it's a woman at least.
El
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