Posted by rabidreader on July 31, 2005, at 19:29:38
In reply to Thank you Ms. Lott - but I am not able to recover. » deborah anne lott, posted by pinkeye on July 31, 2005, at 14:29:25
I think for me it is just hard to think that this love and this pain will never go away, that I might never fully recover, as Pinkeye suggests. I don't want, five years from now, to be continuing this devastation. The pain has me in its grip right now, and even though you talk about letting it happen I want to violently push it away, it hurts too d*** much. It's har to remember that I do feel "wistful nostalgia" for past loves--this feels almost too life-threatening. I can't remember when I've felt so strongly...I guess this suggests there are layers to the grief and that it may have other, past, memories entangled in it. I wish I just knew that in six months or so I'll be okay. There are no guarentees, I know...
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