Posted by Angel Girl on May 21, 2004, at 13:41:24
In reply to Re: You done good » Angel Girl, posted by B2chica on May 21, 2004, at 12:29:20
I had only girl friends b4 HS it wasn't until I got into HS that I was having problems maintaining friends with girls. Drove me crazy, so that's when I decided to start hanging out with only guys, it was so much easier then.
Gotcha about IRL, never seen the abbreviation b4. Yep, that's what I meant too about HS. Now I only have friends online. None IRL. lol!!!
Oh, I realize that therapy takes a long time, especially when your problems have been going on for eons, like for me and sounds the same for you. I'm not in any rush, it's not like I'm going anywhere.
Looks like you have a long road ahead of you just on the guilt issues alone.
I hope the journaling will become automatic. I've tried b4 and it never got off the ground. I kept forgetting or couldn't be bothered.
Where can I find the characteristics for ADHD online? I've never been tested for it. I was originally diagnosed with severe depression. Then when I was in therapy, not long after I started she thought I was BPD and sent me to be tested for that. It was then that I found out I was BPII with the possibility of BPD. They told me I'd have to be retested after I got on a mood stabilizer and got back to my 'normal unhappy self'. How true that was. I have to say though, it made me laugh when I first read that sentence in the report they wrote up for my pdoc.
Never heard of strattera b4. What kind of med is that?
It's not that I want to go back and change my past, that can't be done even if I wanted to. It's just that I've let half my life go by that I can't get back. All because of lack of motivation and not really knowing or understanding what was going on with me or that I even needed help. I first just chalked it up to normal growing up with TONS of rebellion added in.
I have a hard time being proud of myself for anything. It takes me FOREVER to really do anything because 'procrastination' gets in the way big time. It sure doesn't help that I don't like myself either. It's hard to feel good about something you do when you don't like yourself or it takes you forever to do it. My head spins when I hear what other people do in a day when I'm lucky to just get dressed. You sure don't want to see my apartment.
Besides having ADHD, did you say you were BP?