Posted by BarbaraCat on September 2, 2003, at 12:55:17
In reply to Re: Alcohol Sucks!, posted by Caleb96 on September 2, 2003, at 12:10:53
Thanks so much for your story, Caleb. Wow, the pancreas digesting itself! That is scary. I binge, thankfully not very frequently, but enough to know that I have a problem. I also have a few bottles strategically placed in the garage (my husband hates it when I uncork one so I usually open them in the garage so he doesn't hear). I don't much like hard liquor so it's not a problem for me. One is plenty, although that will have to go as well. It's only chardonnay whose taste I love, and whose buzz gets me off the most. There must be some allergenic substance in it.
I'm so otherwise committed to my quest for spiritual, physical and mental health, but keep derailing it with the drinking. Here it is, two days later and I'm still feeling burnt out and weepy and creepy. Alcohol lets in some dark heavy energy and I still feel like I'm brushing clingons and cobwebs off me.
I've rediscovered Rational Recovery (rational.org) and am very fascinated with the philosophy. So far I've done the on-line program (real quick and dirty) and feel it's worked, or at least working. I'm really committed to shaking this Beast off my back.
But your story really put the icing on the cake. Phew! Really points out how booze is a POISON. I see these street people - young, too - with obvious liver cirhosis looking like the walking dead and can't imagine how like hell they must feel. Ima on this thread asked what was it about feeling so happy and good prior to my starting to drink the other night that made me start drinking. That is a very good question and one I am going to spend some time thinking about.
Anyhow, congrats on your seeing the light and sticking with your resolve. - Barbara
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