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Re: The alcohol demon BarbaraCat

Posted by KimberlyDi on September 2, 2003, at 17:32:07

In reply to The alcohol demon Ima, posted by BarbaraCat on September 2, 2003, at 13:15:05

Very nicely put! Alcohol affects dopamine, the reward area of the brain. Imagine when a person is drinking him/herself to death, and the brain is telling him/her to continue. I read once where someone talked about alcoholics having very low dopamine levels, starting from birth. So that the first time they drink, it's the first time they ever feel normal. That struck a chord with me. I love to dance, but I can't dance sober. It takes a few drinks for me to be able to *feel* the music.

Enough for now, I'm going home.
KDi in Texas


Ima,
> > Bcat, when you were happy, do you think there was something else that made you want that first drink?
>
> **That is a very good question and has gotten me thinking. Why wasn't the happy, light, playful and peaceful feeling I was enjoying enough for me? That opened bottle in the fridge was calling, calling to me, like a Siren's song. I knew I'd feel less than great the next morning. I always do and ALWAYS wish I hadn't had even that one teeny drink cause I feel so THICK in the morning with even one. But I guess I wanted the festive carefree feeling to continue and - hey, yes, here it is. It was definitely a yearning for that hypomanic buzzzzzzz. The sweet, happy joyful pure feeling was so nice, so sweet, but there was another little demon that got woken up, maybe by some passing good feeling molecule, that wanted MORE!!!! FEED MEEEE!!! The promise of that rush, that buzz, that transcendent ecstatic high state that I think we BP's are so familiar with, was too tempting, especially with that dang bottle calling from the fridge 'yooo hoooo, Barbara, this is OK but wanna feel REALLY good? Wanna see God?!!'
>
> There must be some kindling from dopamine or some other chemical no matter why it is we feel good that sets off memories of feeling good in a more cataclysmic dramatic scale. For me, it's wanting more and more and more. I'm a 'wild' junkie, I want the wild experience. The peaceful easy feeling is fine for my healthy self, but the destructive lurking little demon in me wants WILD!! There's a definite manic component to it, but somehow I'm seeing into it a little more clearly than just random chemistry. I'm yearning for transcendence. I know there's a book about this very thing by Christina Groff and I think it's time I read it.
>
> Thanks for your question, Ima. It's really got me thinking.
>
> Barbara
>


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