Posted by fluffy on August 29, 2003, at 14:56:44
In reply to Re: Hysteria in Tsunami! » fluffy, posted by katia on August 29, 2003, at 13:47:10
I know what you mean about leaning on friends. I only tell you because I know I felt like a burden to my friends during my last full episode, but they helped me through some really really rough spots. Some people shyed away from me b/c they were scared of me--seeing me not well. They didn't understand. But SOME of my friends came through with flying colors. And I can't tell you how important those people are to me now. You may feel like a burden, but I'm sure there are a couple of trusted friends who would be able to see you through at least some of this.
When I felt like you are feeling now (newly diagnosed and not over a major depression) I often wished that the "friends" who were like--"ick--she doesn't seem well--she's depressed--like, she's crazy--she cracked up--can you believe it?", I wished they knew what it was like to be me and to deal with what was on my plate. (the mean side of me wanted "the cheese to slide off of their cracker" and see how they felt!!--maybe give them an empathetic bone). Basically, through my ordeal I was able to tell who the real friends were, and who the true humanitarians were (or at least, the friends to lean on and the friends to just say "hi" to).
Sometimes I would just have to get away from everyone and just cry and cry until I couldn't cry anymore. The only other thing I could manage to do most of the time was chain-smoke and knit. But in between, there was a wonderful friend who was even able to stomach my admission that I was feeling suicidal. She didn't blink--just told me that if I felt that way again to make sure and call her, or call my pdoc right away.
So if you have a friend that you think can take it, then give him/her a whirl if you really need to lean on someone. (and try not to feel guilty--it's hard!!)
As to your medication, I hope your doctor can help you to find what will work best for you. Please keep our little support group updated.
The psychobabblers are here for you always!