Posted by Damos on March 3, 2005, at 15:53:45
In reply to Re: Depression is a boulder too... » Damos, posted by alexandra_k on March 3, 2005, at 3:41:13
> But you could just forget about it until the appointment comes up... Then you only have to go once... You could stop whenever you like and you wouldn't have lost anything.
Me, just forget about it! LOL!!!! Took me 20+ years to admit I actually had a problem (Yeah, okay, more than one) :-/ It might be one of the reasons I gravitated to the 2 alternate therapists I see. They don't claim to have any answers, there's no processes they learned out of a text book to parrot back at me and they work work with integrating my whole self. Alison who is an energetic healer is amazing I wish I could send you telepathic images of the things that happen when she is just walking around the table passisng her hands over me (another good thing - no touching). She is also incredibly intuitive. Catherine is odd, but in the nicest possible way and she has helped me understand so much about how I (don't) relate well to others or the world in general and help me get better at it. I trusted my intuition in choosing them and think that if I just listen to my body I'll know when and what to do next (I hope).
> I wondered for a good couple of hours the first time I saw it too :-)So it's not just me then? Funny that I knew immediately what IMO meant - go figure.
> Ah. I have the opposite problem I guess...
I'm not so sure that's a problem, cause you never get what you don't ask for :-)
> But you are still here. You are doing well.
Yeah, you're right, I am and I am. Still a very long way to go on a long and winding road. Think part of it is learning to accept and enjoy the journey (bits of it anyway).
> Yeah. Women are supposed to hug a bit more... Not that I like to most of the time. But things are starting to change for guys. Less homophobia etc. And a growing realisation that you don't have to be gay to want a hug.Kinda think hugging is one of those you are or you're not things - which only makes it that much worse when you really need one, or see that someone you care about really needs one and you just don't know how to get across that gap. But at least now I try.
> Yeah. One day. Probably not for quite a while though.Well I'll be wishing it for you every day anyway ;-)
> :-) Dogs are funny... One of mine used to point a little which was bizzare - her being a herding dog and all... But I bet yours points much more intensely... That must look pretty funny :-)Oh yeah!!!!! I just can't believe how she points with her entire being. If I got myself so tense I'd shatter like a china plate.
Poor baby was under the bed from 6pm till 6am this morning as we had thunder and lightening all night and she gets very scared, poor little punkin didn't even have any dogs dinner =0)
> :-( Yuk. That must be pretty horrid. I don't think I have a single allergy. Just a brief (three day) bout of hayfever once (this year). But thats it.
Yeah it's not much fun discovering each new one by accident as a kid. Perfumes, colognes and deodorants can even send me into sneezing, wheezing hayfever like fits. But hey, I think you'd happily swap me some of your troubles for a couple of minor allergies.
> Hmm. Yeah. I use a lot in work time... Oh well. I don't claim to be working, but I am only supposed to use the internet for tutoring or research. I suppose I would attempt to justify it as research if I had to defend it.. They might not consider it good enough to justify the SIZE of the bill, though.
They've been really good to me here and I just don't want to abuse the relationship. Been here nearly 18 years, can you believe it.
> Yeah. Only one fail in the whole bunch! And that was because there wasn't an approved extension and they didn't attach a bibliography. Once that got sorted they all passed. Not that they all passed the course, but at least I didn't have to fail anyone (it is never very nice doing that).Knowing how I responded to "fails", I find anything like that really hard to give someone else.
> :-) I am sure he could have taught me a thing or two about ethics... I only dabble there actually. More into philosophy of mind...
He was amazing, very socially awkward and isolated but brilliant and so into history and languages (taught himslef to read and write Russian), and poetry and just so across so many things. The quantum leaps of logic and possiblilty used to have my eyes spinning in opposite directions.
> :-) Right back atcha triple strength
> :-) Right back atcha triple strength
> :-) Right back atcha triple strength
> Thats great! It is nice to reflect on the good when one is able... There always will be plenty of times where one is not...> Thats great!
> Not that It isn't hard at times..
> But I am glad that you are happier now.
> And I hope you will be happier still in the future.Thank you Alexandra, just taking one day at a time and trying not to get too ahead of my self (not that I'd necessarily recognise me if I took the time to stop and look back anyway):-)
> Ok. I am getting used to 'em. Quite like it here, actually :-) No car alarms for the past couple of nights so have decided to hold off the complaining. I'll see how bad it gets...You just make sure you're always looking after you, okay.
> You are welcome. Thank you!!!!!!
>
> > ((((alexandra_k)))))
> Thanks for being so nice to me. I really appreciate it. It means a lot to me. I don't feel very verbal tonight. Bit of a hard day. But it really does mean a great deal to me. Thank you (((Damos)))It is truly my pleasure Alexandra_k. It means a lot to me to be able to talk to you too. Bit of a hard day - I thought it was the English who had the talent for understatement. In your place I would have been a ballistic missile with multiple indepentendly targetted warheads!!!!!! I thought you were pretty controlled given the circumstances.
((((alexandra_k))))
Sarah sends her love too.
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