Posted by alexandra_k on March 3, 2005, at 3:41:13
In reply to Re: Depression is a boulder too... » alexandra_k, posted by Damos on March 1, 2005, at 20:41:26
> I guess for me the problem with waiting is that it gives me too much time to talk myself out of it.
But you could just forget about it until the appointment comes up... Then you only have to go once... You could stop whenever you like and you wouldn't have lost anything.
> I'm not gonna tell you how long I sat wondering what IRL was - Doh :-)
I wondered for a good couple of hours the first time I saw it too :-)
> Just always found it hard to ask (environment issues/influences - mostly father)Ah. I have the opposite problem I guess...
> It's kinda scary when I think that nearly 25 years have gone by like this.But you are still here. You are doing well.
> > Ah, but guys don't hug - remember???
> And that dear girl is part of the problem.Yeah. Women are supposed to hug a bit more... Not that I like to most of the time. But things are starting to change for guys. Less homophobia etc. And a growing realisation that you don't have to be gay to want a hug.
> I'm also finally getting better at setting boundaries and "calling" people who violate my trust and/or boundaries.
Good for you :-)
> Well I hope that someday soon you'll have a place where you can have some puppy pals of your own again :-)Yeah. One day. Probably not for quite a while though.
> Oh yeah! It's the funniest thing when she's stalking a lizard or bug or something and suddenly busts into a "point". She's so rigid she actually shakes. Sweet baby.
:-) Dogs are funny... One of mine used to point a little which was bizzare - her being a herding dog and all... But I bet yours points much more intensely... That must look pretty funny :-)
> Bunch of stuff, soy included found that out when I was taken of dairy products age 10 or so. Nut are the worst - they've nearly sent me off to Lucifer a couple of times. Not much fun. Too many others to list.:-( Yuk. That must be pretty horrid. I don't think I have a single allergy. Just a brief (three day) bout of hayfever once (this year). But thats it.
> I had literally pages of stuff I was thinking about, but it kinda resembled an exploding star with energy and matter going at the speed of light in all directions.:-)
>But thank for providing the stimulation and desire to to contribute. Have to do a lot of my posting from the Kinkos store under the office at lunch-time as the PC at home is dead and feel guilty about using too much work time.
Hmm. Yeah. I use a lot in work time... Oh well. I don't claim to be working, but I am only supposed to use the internet for tutoring or research. I suppose I would attempt to justify it as research if I had to defend it.. They might not consider it good enough to justify the SIZE of the bill, though.
> > Oh, I didn't tutor 'em, just failed 'em ;-)
> You wish, cheeky girl!!!!!! ;-)Yeah. Only one fail in the whole bunch! And that was because there wasn't an approved extension and they didn't attach a bibliography. Once that got sorted they all passed. Not that they all passed the course, but at least I didn't have to fail anyone (it is never very nice doing that).
> You would have loved a friend of mine who sadly passed away a while back had a Masters in Bioethics and a couple of others that I just can't remember. We used to have the greatest talks. David Bohm would have described them as dialogues (an unfolding of shared meaning).:-) I am sure he could have taught me a thing or two about ethics... I only dabble there actually. More into philosophy of mind...
>I am quite definitely happier now (the crowd cheers) :-).It does indeed!
>I've still a lot to work through and sort out but I smile now (quite a bit according to some of those interviewed), and this smiling is internal, to myself, at and with others.
:-)
:-)
:-)>I look ahead of me as I walk down the street instead of at my shoes and actually smile at complete strangers and sometimes even get a smile in return (unimaginable not so long ago). I appear "lighter" to some people, one even remarked that I appear taller. I know I am more authentic for want of a better word and way to describe it. My appearance and behaviour are true to how I'm feeling at the time. And the list goes on.
Thats great! It is nice to reflect on the good when one is able... There always will be plenty of times where one is not...
>you might have guessed by now that I'm having a good day. :-) When people who have know you for a long time can see the difference it makes it all worthwhile and it's nice to have what you were trying to believe about yourself confirmed. I am more me now that at any time in my life.
Thats great!
Not that It isn't hard at times..
But I am glad that you are happier now.
And I hope you will be happier still in the future.
> How are things working out with the living arrangements, any progress????Ok. I am getting used to 'em. Quite like it here, actually :-) No car alarms for the past couple of nights so have decided to hold off the complaining. I'll see how bad it gets...
> Well, have a great evening and night dear heart. thanks for listening.You are welcome.
> ((((alexandra_k)))))
((((Damos)))))
Thanks for being so nice to me. I really appreciate it. It means a lot to me. I don't feel very verbal tonight. Bit of a hard day. But it really does mean a great deal to me. Thank you (((Damos)))
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