Posted by alexandra_k on February 28, 2005, at 4:01:41
In reply to Re: Depression is a boulder too... » alexandra_k, posted by Damos on February 27, 2005, at 15:48:18
> So I'm glad you had at least one teacher who did.
That was my therapist.
> Has something happened each and every time I've wanted to admit defeat and given me a reason to go on? Yep. Does it annoy the h*ll out of me. You better believe it.Yeah. That is a bugger that. Ambivalence. Cognitive dissonance. Yuk. If you manage to make up your mind one way or the other then there is a strange sense of calm... Numbness... Resolution...
But something comes along.
It is only a bugger if you think that the 'something' is just a brief respite from the reality of your existence which is unbearable pain and suffering. If you look at it the other way - that depression is just a brief divergence from the okayness of existence then it ain't so bad. But even the lenses seem to change.When I am down I forget there was such a thing as existence without the pain.
Or I think that at those times when I thought life was okay - well, that was the time I was deluding myself.
> Are there still days when I want to race down stairs and play with the traffic - more than I care to admit. But for some reason I don't ( I do, I'm just really bad at it!) :-):-)
I am glad you are still around.
I am glad I get to talk to you.
> &*%^%&%^^& this probably really hasn't been any help what so ever has it? I've obviously just fallen in love with sound of my own typing.Na. You are doing great :-)
> Believe me kiddo, the fact that you come to this place and make so many people laugh and smile, and challenge and stimulate them intellectually, and support them emotionally is enough reason to go on. It might not seem like, but it is. Each of our worlds would be slightly the poorer without you in it. So you just keep on dodging that rock okay.And you too.
I am glad you are here.
(I know I said that already but just think of it as a form of affirmation)> Puppy Magee sends a big tail wag!
Who?
Have you got another one??
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