Posted by fallsfall on October 17, 2004, at 22:57:42 [reposted on October 19, 2004, at 1:39:48 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Urge,Plan,Tools - Suicide » fallsfall, posted by corafree on October 17, 2004, at 21:15:07
It sounds to me like you really do have some pretty difficult things going on right now. And I know how it feels to believe that it is not a life worth living. But I also know how I felt that way one day, but a month later I really did feel differently (not that life was wonderful, or anything, but that it was at least worth working a little longer to see if things might improve. I guess the difference was that I found a little hope - after I thought that all of the hope was gone). So, at least for me, things did turn around - so I know that it *is* possible for them to turn around.
But, I also know that when things were so awful for me, that I really needed some help. Do you have a therapist? If you do, how long have you been going and how often do you you see him/her? Please call your therapist on Monday. It is OK to need help sometimes, and a sign of strength if you can ask for the help you need (and you did ask your ex for help...). If you don't have a therapist, please call your GP and see if he can give you a referral. I know you don't want to spend money on this, but your kids would rather have you around and have a little debt than have you gone. I know that it seems like your oldest doesn't want you around, but sometimes time can change things like that (plus she is in the middle of wicked hormonal fluctuations right now). Please give her a chance to come around.
Try to find someone to talk to tomorrow. And please post to let us know how you are doing. Do you know how to use the Babble chat room "Open"? Let me know if you need information on how to get there.
Things did improve for me - please give it a little time to see if they can improve for you.
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