Posted by partlycloudy on August 6, 2004, at 12:18:20
In reply to starting over » ghost, posted by octopusprime on August 6, 2004, at 10:56:58
I don't know if this has any place in your thread, ghost, but I'm working on a new mantra to reinforce the good things at my very core:
"I trust my instinct, my intuition, and my powers of discernment."
When I get side swiped by events in my life, or feel powerless over the direction it's going in, it's usually because I have gone against my gut feelings. I blame myself cruelly and without forgiveness. When I'm depressed I can't see any of the good in my life, just what I think of as failures - and I hold myself fully responsible.
Ghost, I thought of this when I read your Good Things versus Not So Good Things list. Keeping your mental health is a number one priority! Finding a place to live is important - I was a renter for the longest time because I knew I just would not have the energy or ambition to maintain an entire house, and a lawn, and a garden, and what about the snow in winter.... and when we finally did buy something, it was a condo. I feel like I kept to my values so I had greater satisfaction about the decision: became a homeowner (after losing not one but two homes), and didn't have to feel guilty about keeping up appearances because it's included in the condo fees.
I am rambling here.... but I want to say that you should stay true to what feels right for you. Everything is shaded by guilt and depression you feel now, but look for that core of ghost and you won't go wrong...
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